Tomorrow I go back to college--or should I say today.
My original thoughts were I was only afraid because I'm worried about money and have no idea what classes I am taking. But now as I sit in my basement for the last night for a while I think to myself about how now I have to go back to a place where I can't be myself, and be alone when I need it.
I can't hug my mom or best friend when I've had a long day.
That's part of growing up and I get that, I just wish that I had the reassurance of mental or emotional stability as I was put on this journey.
Anyway the reason I Started this post. Completely different topic--I'll try to link them.
Reasons leaving will be good, I don't have to refer to my parents nagging, but most important is I will be away from people here that are making me even more confused about life. I want to get rid of the toxic and start anew. It is 2015 and I deserve some happiness for maybe a month. I want to experience the bliss once more.
I don't want to let people have the control they had over me in 2014, I want to be my own person and break others hearts rather than have mine stepped on. I know that's a bit dramatic, but hell this is my blog I will do what I want.
2015
The year of a great life cleanse.
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