Debatably ignoring reality

     Today for the first time in 5 years I am going to participate in a debate tournament, unless you count being in oral interp. during senior year.  I agreed to help judge at this tournament, because being the broke college student that I am, I could use the money. As much anxiety as the idea of this is causing me, I think that I might actually end up enjoying myself. 

      On the plus side, I get to see many of my friends. The crazy part being friends that ages range from 15-23. I am at such a weird point in my life where I am supposedly transitioning into adulthood, although I have no idea what I am doing. I am supposed to go judge these high schoolers, looking like a composed adult that has their life together when in reality I'm worried that I am going to screw up just as much as they are. I am just going to try to keep focused and look as intimidating as possible. Eyes on the prize, the christmas money I will be receiving after this week. 

     Relating to that, I am already prepping for Christmas. The Christmas music has been playing for about a week now, as have the movies. I like to distract myself from reality and engulf myself in the holiday cheer. I saw a post on tumblr that is unbelievably accurate. 

11 months out of the year: life is a train wreck. 

in december: life is a polar express wreck. 

except it's more november and december because I am nuts and enjoy avoiding all things school and life that are negative, by trapping myself in my room watching Christmas movie, after Christmas movie. 

     That's about wear I am right now in life. Nothing really feels great and stable, but I am distracting myself with Christmas. I am sure to mess something else up in the next couple of weeks, but I will do my best to sweep it under the rug. 

       

      Until next time, keep enjoying your hot cocoa as the months begin to chill!